It’s a drug.
Kratom is the new hip substance touted by go-getting bloggers. I’ve tried supplements and products recommended by the manosphere before and most of them do what they say. My favorites are fish oil, creatine, and theanine.
So naturally after reading half a dozen articles on Kratom I decided to give it a go.
And like they say, the dosage does matter. Take too little, and you won’t feel anything. Take too much, and you’ll feel tired and queasy. But take just the right amount (determined by your own experiements) and you’ll feel awesome. Unstoppable with a lot energy.
It’s not intoxicating the way marijuana and even Adderall can be. It’s stronger than caffeine, but it doesn’t jolt you like caffeine. It’s a smooth buzz that you can sustain by titrating throughout the day.
But it is a drug induced high. And that’s the problem. It gets you high.
You can notice this if you’re especially in tune with your body. It’s not the same feeling you get from from drinking green vegetable juice, or from exercising, or from hugging a friend.
And that fact gives me pause.
I want to live a life that is completely drug free, and completely dependent on Jesus for my every need.
I don’t want to be dependent on chemicals to feel good. Yes, I know everything is a chemical and technically serotonin and dopamine are the only two things you enjoy. But I’m addicted to caffeine and it’s not a good thing. I also smoked weed for 5 years, and while it was super fun, eventually it had to go. Those drugs took more than they gave.
I’m going to keep experimenting with Kratom, but I wonder, will it eventually take more than it gives?